[Darryl2312]

I am confused by my ex.

We were together for 3 1/2 years, stayed together for almost 2 years.
She had an 11 year old son. We split up 3 months ago.
Things were generally ok, we did argue a bit and I did put her down a bit looking back and I could be nasty to her and her son.

We had planned kids, marriage and to get a mortgage next year.
There was a lot of love there though she admitted herself we had something very special.
Things took a turn for the worst, I went on a stag night with some friends at the end of April got drunk met a german girl and cheated on my her.

When I got back I was riddled with guilt and I though I had caught an STD, so I owned up, she was devastated, we both went to docs for tests, clean. We agreed to put it behind us. Then in July we went to Mexico, argued a bit on holiday as she did ignore me at times speaking to other guys I called her a tart on one occasion.

When we got back we dumped our cases, she said she was going shopping and that was it.
We lived together for a week after the split in different rooms which was hard. i then went to London to stay with family for a week to give her space, she called to say it was over.
She agreed to move out of the house by the time I got back, she did.

When I got back she had taken pretty much everything, I continously called and text her then went to her work one day, she said I was getting nothing back and I stupidly scratched her car and owned up. Then she called to say come to my work to talk and when I got there I was arrested!
I was kept in a cell over night taken to court in the morning and given bail that said I could not contact her stupidly I did. She reported me and I was taken in again.
Eventually I got 200 hours community service.

2 weeks ago after almost 2 months of no contact I text her to say she can pick up the rest of her things she text back ok, we then talked that day on/off for about 2 hours then nothing!
She agreed to take her name of our house as it was a joint tenancy but never did. I contacted a solicitor to see about getting some of my things back as I was scared if I contacted her Id end up in prison, she would have got the solicitors letter a few days after we talked. I explained and said I had been seeing other people, I dont know if I annoyed her or no, she text back saying I dont want you calling or texting me we have both moved on. When we talked I asked if she was happier now and how she felt I also asked if shed like to meet she wouldnt be honest with me about her feelings and said she wasnt ready to meet.

Im sure she is seing someone else which hurts.
The other day she agreed to go to sign her name of the house she didnt go.
I text to ask why she called gave me abuse on the phone said im going now and now you wont need to text or call me, when she left she admitted she was fighting against her feelings for me.
Am I reading too much into this ?

what do you think, is there hope, what should I do ?
I really want her back so much, I'm so alone.