[Insight411]

Welcome to TLL Darryl. It's good to have you here. You will meet many friends that have shared similar walks and can provide valuable information to you. Please take heed and gain as much knowledge possible from them.

Your situation is a sad one but I won't begin to feel sorry for you, you are doing enough of that for the both of us. Cheating - wow....been there done that. That creates huge problems D. You are not the 1st guy to do it nor will you be the last but wrong is wrong regardless of who does it. So what can you learn from this? What can you gain?

For starters, let's stop feeling sorry for self. It's time to forgive you. It's not possible to go back in life and change ANYTHING; but you can become a better person now and change your future. You started with a bad decision (cheating) and decided to pile many other bad decisions on top. I could only grimace reading your post because I could see the pile up happening. Enough of the bad decisions - Time to start making some wise ones now, time to make better decisions.

Darryl it's time to make some changes in your world and the one thing you can change in all this - is YOU. Time to focus on you. Take your focus off of her and pay attention to what you are doing to self. Jail time.....twice? Let's wake up D. You don't want to stay on this downward spiral. You can't make someone come back to you, that's their choice; But you can certainly run someone away. And your actions are forcing her further and further away. Please allow time and distance to salvage her opinion of you. Don't make that worse. I hope you will wake enough to see what everyone is trying to tell you. D, It's time to move on!

None of us know what the future holds but we can definitely read the signs of disaster ahead. It's time to stop chasing, calling and bothering her. Stop trying to get material things back, those can be replaced. Don't use those as an excuse to have some contact with her. Focus on keeping your mental health, that is much harder to replace if you lose it. Please allow yourself time and space to heal. You will be amazed how much better this round ball of people will look.

You ask if you are reading too much into this. I think you are reading the hope you want into this. It's time to stop including her in your thoughts of "right now." Let those thoughts (thoughts of right now) be about a better you. Because if you are not a better you, why would she or anyone else want you? Let's focus on you, how to improve you and watch how things will slowly improve. Remember, just because you are not talking to her right now DOES NOT mean that you are alone. We are here for and with you.....this you will see.