Hi folks, well I did something very stupid over the weekend, I drunkenly text at 3am sat morning, feeling sorry for myself going home alone I was in tears.
She called later that day, we talked she said I cant text at that time I said ok.
She admitted to me our holiday was make or break which hurts I guess I said we should have talked. Im staying with my parents at the moment as I cant face staying in that house it holds too many memories. I offered to sign the house over to her when we talked she agreed if I didnt want it that was fine, I also got her Xmas present a long weekend in New York for us (I stay in Scotland) I intended to propose there said I wanted her to have it she said ok no qualms ! What does this say about her, when we split up I also bought her a £200 watch which she kept ! I just cannot get over her, she said she saw me in a bar one night I said why did you not say hello she said I was otherwise engaged ith a girl ! Later on Sat I text to ask the plans for the house when we were going to go etc. she made no sense so I called she was very nasty raising her voice as she was in company I said look I am trying to do you a favour and just want you to aknowledge that, she then hung up. I asked her to be honest about everything but she would not go into anything and said she would rather hang up. I then sent a text telling her the truth who I had seen since we split up I said I want honesty now I will be honest. She then sent the following text:
Darryl keep the house New York and my things. Have a happy life. Please do not text or call me again thankyou.
Did I get to her ? Guess that was the plan.
I really feel so lonely at the moment I can see my friends are getting sick of hearing about it I dont want to push them away.
Its my birthday 2 days before Xmas, spending that and Xmas without her is a horrible thought that scares me then new year. Im 28 on my birthday, im so scared for the future I dont think I will ever meet anyone as special or beautiful again, I feel so rejected unattractive & low, I have had some dark thoughts, I know I need to pick myself up but I just cant |