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NC Challenge - Day 2
Mood:- Worried

Well today I havent been able to get her out my head at all. I had made plans with a friend which fell through which as a result I spent all day on my own and so had far too much time to think. I'm just in from having a night out playing pool with 3 of my oldest male friends, who I spoke to individually, yet even when I was with them all i was wondering was why hasnt she tried to contact me. I was worried she was going out with her friends. I was worried she was meeting someone else. I was worried she isnt going to contact me because I know how stubborn she can be. I want to know what she is thinking. I want to know she misses me.

I KNOW I shouldnt be thinking like this, and that I need to put these thoughts out of my head, and i do try but its so hard. I know I wasnt myself tonight at all. I did try looking at other girls while we were out, but at the moment, I just know that i would compare them to her and they wouldnt even come close.

I have a confession to make as well, after dropping my last friends off, I drove past her house as she stays round the corner. The reason for doing this was to see if she was out our not. If she is out, her mum and dad leave a light on downstairs. The light was off which calmed me a little. But almost straight away I was thinking maybe she was out earlier in the night with someone else rather than her friends, and was therefore home early. I know her friends didnt go out till about 10pm, so its far too early for her to have been out and then home by 1am. Or has she told her mum and dad she is staying at her friends, despite the fact she is working tomorrow?

Yes, I know, theres nothing I can do if she is, it doesnt concern me any more, but I still love her, and I still worry about her...she is still my wife and I cant stand the thought of her being with someone else.

So there you go, not a good day at all. But hey its still early, and I guess its natural to still feel like this so early on.

But why wont she contact me?