[Unca]

Okay as already seen on the NC thread I hadnt been able to keep it very well...the longest being 4 days!

Well today is the fourth day and I havent contacted her.

Basically had a run in with her on Wednesday night where she was being picked up by a "male friend"...and then didnt go home from work. I took all her things that were in my house down to her parents where she is staying (including her wedding dress) which is how I knwo she didnt go home and had told her dad she wouldnt be in after work.

I txt her on Thursday to say that i would be in the house on my own for the next two weeks if she wanted to talk and that if I hadnt heard from her by this friday i would start the divorce. i also found out that night that she had been seen having drinks with the same guy picking her up the week before.

So far I havent heard anything at all...not a peep.

I'm confused. When I gave her my ring on Wednesday she seemed genuinely shocked and surprised that i was giving her it. She's also never mentioned divorce, even after I mentioned it a few weeks back.

I've also discovered that she is checking my bebo page whenever she goes online...which again, if she cared as little as she says she does, why is she doing that?

So do I go ahead with the divorce if I havent heard from her by the end of the week? I really dont want to. In fact it scares me that I will no longer have my wife. But at the same time I want to show her that I'm serious.

I think last week was some sort of closure on the the whole thing. yes I cried that night, but I havent really felt "down" since then. Dont get me wrong, I havent felt happy, but I havent felt like my heart has been ripped out of my chest!

I am concentrating on myself...I've been out and about today with friends, and already got dinner lined up with a nice attractive single girl tomorrow night. Got a get together with friends on wednesday and possibly Thursday. And I know I'm not going to dwell on her...my mind hasnt been in the same place that it was for the past month since we split up.

I am doing the things that I want to do. sorting myself out. But i cant help thinking about things every now and again because i am really confused about her.

But hey ho....day 4 is now done...onto day 5! :)