Im proud of you Suzie for going through with it and handling it very well! Good job! I totally understand that shock factor...I dated my ex for 3 years and we were in talks of planning a wedding and then kind of out of the blue she decided that she was fine dating but never could see us being married...so she ended it..(and this is after 3 years)...totally destroyed me and no one I told believed me.....this was in April...and I still have days where I just sit down and am like "did that REALLY happen? How did that happen!!??" etc etc... What I have had to come to accept, and what has been the hardest to accept, is that if it never works out for me and my ex (which i don't think it will) then I have to stop asking why and how and realize I may never understand why it happened and all the reasons and understandings of it and the what ifs...and I also have to realize that it will always be a part of me. If you and your ex dont get back together it will take time...possibly alot of time...but personally, I believe that it is ok to take a little part of that person with you...because he helped make you who you are today...Im not sure how that really apply's at all....i just know i struggle at times with the shock factor and its a constant struggle between trying to just forget it ever happened...totally blocking it out...or dwelling on it and hoping we get back together...i think there is a fine medium in there that has to be found...it will take time...but you will find it...i think thats my point :)
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