i finally got the courage to say enough is enough... after almost 13 years together with my husband. he was abusive in every way. he also is a drug addict. i called the cops about 3 weeks ago after he physically and verbally abused me again in front of our youngest son. i've been wanting to end this marriage for so long, in fact 5 years ago, i filed for divorce but we reconciled. i guess i thought he'd change, but nothing changed at all. he was still abusive and was constantly cheating on me with other women and he even gave me an std. glad i got that treated but still i stayed with him, i regret so much. from the beginning of our relationship, maybe after a week in to it, he began abusing me and isolated me from everyone. i didn't have nobody to turn to and i began to just live my life that way. it was hard to please him. nothing i do is good enough for him. and it seems that all the other women to him, was better than me. i am a good person. i always try to do the right thing in life. my parents raised me well. my siblings and i never got into trouble or anything and i was a straight A student growing up. but how i ended up with a guy like this? i don't know. i never wanted to be the one to hurt him by ending the relationship and that i was always weak hearted. i did loved him alot and wanted to keep our family together but i guess i finally woke up and felt that he will never ever change not even for our kids. it's still hard for me right now to live my life after being with him so long but my kids are keeping me strong and i got to live my life for them. i'm just sorry that i put them through this all this years when we could have left him earlier. i deserve better. my kids deserve better.