Letting go of you

[niks]

Dear A

Your actions really hurt me, and I don't think I'll ever understand why you did what you did.

But I've spent enough time grieving over you... or what I thought you were, and that is my fault I know.

I know my problems run a lot deeper than just that you didn't want me, but I also know I will try my hardest to fix them. When I do I will find someone who deserves me , because I know I'm worth better than being someones back up plan, I'm worth much more than I've let myself be.

I really hope you get everything you want out of life , but it will never include me.

I thought I couldn't live without you.... but I can, I'm letting you go so I can be happy.

Goodbye x

(ps I hated it when you told me off for saying goodbye)

[OhManINeedCoffee]

Aww, thanks for posting that, niks! You've done GREAT these past several months, and you've really put a lot of introspection into the whole situation.

But really, why would someone tell somebody off for saying goodbye?

[niks]

Thanks Kelley, that really means a lot, I couldn't of done it without all the help and advice from you lot .

I honestly don't know why, but he would only ever say goodnight to me, and if I said goodbye he got annoyed and questioned why I was using that instead, and then told me it wasn't goodbye. Guess it was his way of keeping me hanging on. Or maybe just because he's a jerk.

I'm not gonna fall for his mind games anymore though, and thankfully he seems to have stopped trying to contact me , which makes things easier lol.

x

[J1b1a2]

Your post gives me hope, thanks.