Thanks my friends,
I agree I made the mistake of telling my son after all. And I didn't tell it to him the right way because I did it ruched, because he didn't want to listen.
My son didn't go for the haircut anymore this morning so I didn't go to his office anymore and the meeting didn't happen. The longer I wait the more I don't want to deal with it. I must do it quick. I hope I can find the currage to do it this weekend.
I agree that my son doesn't want to hear anything bad about his dad and that's why he got so defensive.
I do agree that we should stay in contact with my ex a little but I don't want it to be as before anymore. Him calling me EVERY day for 3 years and questioning me as if I was being intervieuwed. He wanted to know every thing I did everyday, It was as if I was an ant under a magnifing glass. I was divorced but he was still acting as a jealous husband. Because of that I could not date anyone in fear of his questions and reactions.
I only want to speak to him if it is about the kids.
My parents are looking to give me an extra job in the company so they can give me a raise. My mother asked me yesterday how much I was making excactly and she and my dad are going to talk about it. Have not heard anything yet.
Keep you updated,
Thank you so much for replying to my post, it means a lot to me that there are people out there that care about me and want to help me. It is because of you guys and my family that I didn't loose it yet, because I really feel overwhelmed sometimes, affraid I wont be able to take care of my two kids on my own.