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    Post One of the last letters I write to you

    I don't know what I did to deserve this kind of behavior from you. I have done nothing but try to be supportive since day one. I hope you do not try to deny Emily the loving father that she deserves. This stopped being about US a long time ago.

    I'm only trying to be friendly...I'm the last person you need to give a cold shoulder to. I only wanted to see how you were doing, I think I have a right to be concerned about your/Emily's development. I know I did not speak to you for an extended period of time, but that was time that I needed, and I'm sure you needed it too. It was just too painful to have any contact with you.

    I'm just as attached to Emily emotionally as you are, but I dare not express it. I'm tired of caring, I'm tired of trying to do little things to show my support and then being shot down, I'm just plain tired. Does that mean I'll give up though? Not at all. I'll probably never understand why this had to happen, but it doesn't have to be like this between us. For the last time...I'm sorry for everything I might have done to hurt you or your family, but I also refuse to blame myself for everything that has happened, it was and always will take TWO.

    Mom can be emotionally abusive at times just like her mother was...maybe that's part of the reason I'm the way I am, I had a lot of baggage coming into this thing, I wasn't happy with who I was, I had/still have problems with depression and anxiety and if I ever dragged you down into that with me I apologize. I guess you could say this thing was unhealthy right from the start. I just want to be there for Emily and spend as much time with her as I possibly can and you have no reason to worry about my future just as I have no reason to worry about yours. Just know I was always willing to take you as you were, regardless of what you became.

    I know I will be a good role model for Emily regardless of the circumstances, because despite what anyone else may think, I know I'm a good person, maybe a little crazy, but good none the less. Reject me, kick me while I'm down, that won't stop me from getting right back up again, dusting myself off, and continuing to try and support you and our daughter to the best of my ability. After all, all a person can do is their best.

    If in reading this it has made you feel any negative emotions, it wasn't meant to. This is a very emotionally trying time for both of us, but I've said what I felt I needed to say. I own my feelings, if this letter was meant for one person, it was meant for me.
    " Manifest plainness, Embrace simplicity, Reduce selfishness, Have few desires "

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    Daniel~

    Yes, you do "own your feelings"...and you also own your actions....Good for you that your not taking ownership of "hers"!

    Hugs,

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    Very Touching letter Leinad88 hope everything works out ok.

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    Great letter, Leinad. I hope she realizes all of this soon.

    And I love the name you guys have picked out
    "Are tangerines really just oranges that didn't want it enough?" - Random Greeting Card

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    Quote Originally Posted by OhManINeedCoffee View Post
    Great letter, Leinad. I hope she realizes all of this soon.

    And I love the name you guys have picked out
    Thank you. We had decided on names for both sexes but she changed them after we broke up. Originally we agreed on Alis Emily, which will now be Emily Shea...unless she changes it again. I'm guessing you're a Dickinson fan?
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    LOL. Actually I really don't like Dickinson all that much...but I love the Bronte sisters
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    Quote Originally Posted by OhManINeedCoffee View Post
    LOL. Actually I really don't like Dickinson all that much...but I love the Bronte sisters
    Was worth a guess... :o
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