I am so sorry you feel this way but I want you to realize something. Regardless of how you feel RIGHT now, you are free. You do not have to guess anymore. You are able to do what you need to do. As far as I am concerned you should be grateful to know that his mask came off and he is exposed. I know your heartaches. I know you shared alot together and I know you had a good past for the most part but you are done.
Know that you deserve better than his "good enough". If he wasn't man enough to speak to you about how he feels then how can that ever be man enough for you? This is your window. You spoke once of why your life is stagnant and why positive changes have not been happening the way you hoped.
Try and let go of the hurt and stand on yoru own two feet. You can do this. You are one tough spirit that CAN DO IT BY YOURSELF! I know this hurts but work through it and grow from it. Learn that problems just don't go away and that though things may not look in a positive light, you must look for the silver lining. Take this situation and understand that you are human. We all hurt and make mistakes. Don't let this situation weigh you down. Let the weight go and run with it. You can do anywhere you want, see what you want, do what you want and with whomever is lucky enough to come in contact with you.
You may miss the good times you had but remember those are just memories. Hold on to the good times but DON'T LIVE IN YOUR PAST.
Dry those tears and know that you have us right behind you to catch you when you fall or you feel weak. I find strength in you. Now, it's time to prove it to yourself.
You are THATDOGGIRL.....see you roar!