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Hi, ColeOliva, and welcome!
Cheating is an extremely difficult thing to forgive and forget - I'm not sure if it's ever really possible to do so. I agree with what Leinad has said - while he may not be able to give you a reason for cheating, there still is one.
From what you've told us so far, it seems that you have given him what he wants, whenever he wants is. Does he do the same for you? He does not seem to be doing so, since you're so troubled by your relationship with him. Is it as important to you whether or not he does, or are you simply trying to keep him from cheating again? Do NOT put yourself second in this relationship. It's natural for us to want to love and please our partners, but the less we take care of ourselves, the less able we are to do that. I would have to agree that his cheating most likely has very little to do with any sort of sexual unfulfillment with you. There is something else going on there, but since I don't know the guy, I can't really throw out any suggestions.
My concern is that you're allowing yourself to cater to his needs while neglecting your own. Doing this makes it easier for you to be taken advantage of, and you run the risk of losing yourself in the relationship. Do not allow yourself to fall into that trap.
I think the possibility of a counselor is a good idea, although many people are very obstinate when it comes to couples' counseling. More often than not, though, a break up happens fundamentally because of bad communication. Something is not getting through, someone (or both people involved) are not articulating what needs to be articulated effectively. Things are not being heard they way they need to be heard. If your boyfriend is just as willing to work this out as I know you are, then I doubt he'd be opposed to such an idea.
Also, I woldn't worry about the porn thing unless it gets to the extent where it disrupts his everyday life. Even when I am in a relationship and having sex regularly, I'll still want a "snack between meals," as it were. It has nothing to do with you - you're aren't doing anything wrong or disappointing him in bed. It's not that you're "not enough" for him. Porn serves a lot of purposes - a way to become aroused, a sort of "instruction manual," a way to get some new ideas, etc. - but it does not REPLACE sex. Again, if it seems to be conflicting with his daily life, or he suddenly seems to forego actual sex to porngraphy, then he may have a problem. If not, then I'd just chalk it up to a guy who really likes his porn.
Again, welcome to the board, and please keep us posted on how things are going!
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